I Have a Dream...

I had a dream last night that I was talking to a group of mother's, some that I hadn't seen in years, and we were sharing our birth stories. This gave me the idea to create a place for women wanting to share their stories and for women looking for experiences from those who have been there. I don't think I'm alone in this desire to share and hear other women's birthing experiences. It is something so special and spiritual and often private. But when you're pregnant it becomes an obsession to learn, read, and watch as much as you can about different births so you can experience that "magical" moment in the way you have always dreamed. But, to many it may be a terrifying and anxious time. Especially since movies and media like to show that aspect. YES it's INTENSE. Probably one of the most intense things a woman can experience but it doesn't have to be scary. From my experiences, the more fearful I was the more pain I felt. Of course, there are times when things go wrong and intervention is necessary but I'm not talking about those times I'm talking about the average healthy pregnancy and birth experience. I am not a professional but I am experienced as are so many amazing women I know and I wanted to create a place for those stories to be told and shared. I have had 4 babies and each birth was a very different experience. My first baby was born in a hospital with a doctor and my last baby was born at home with a midwife. My first birth had morphine and nitrous oxide for pain relief and my last had a warm soothing pool of water and counter pressure. There really is no comparison from my first to my fourth. My first I felt lost, helpless, nauseated, out of control, and I hyperventilated. My fourth had minor issues (which I will tell in another post) but I felt supported, loved, empowered, strong, and in a way primeval. Like there was this inner strength within me I never knew I had. It was amazing and so different from my first experience.We as women are strong, powerful and capable of greatness. We can grow life within us and bring life into this world. It is a beautiful, precious thing that doesn't get enough positive light. My real life dream would be for every woman to believe that it is possible for them. We have enough darkness and fear in this world. We need more light and hope.